The devil really doesn't like to see me happy. I woke up feeling OK and had every intention of having a fantastic day...That didn't last long. The first "attack" came via someone from my past. I allowed them to get under my skin and acted out of character as a result. I felt mad at myself for being weak in that situation but felt really good that I had put my foot down and took a stand for my feelings. I am not the best person in the world but I am not close to being the worse. You know what? If not another human ever loves me or sees my worth...it will be alright because God loves me and I love myself as well.
So my mood went back up after to getting support from a friend. Having someone publicly proclaim that they are there for you, even if via a social networking site, feels wonderful. The day at work progressed well. I laughed, and enjoyed my time with co-workers. But, as it seems to often go, the better I feel the lower I will feel later. I did not react well to negative thoughts that popped in my head and it caused me to hurt someone's feelings and ruin my morale. I let the negative thinking breed and produce more negative thoughts and fear. But, all was not lost...With the lows comes the highs as well. Outstanding company never fails to wash away the blues.
Tomorrow will include study and recreational time. I hope to participate in a little window retail therapy. lol I also want to really work hard at stopping the negativity when it first starts and countering it with a positive. I also want to say hello to everyone I meet today while wearing a huge smile. I think it will help me feel happier and maybe brighten someone's day in the process.
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